This year I was lucky enough to meet a wonderful man. When I found him on OkCupid I was not looking to date anyone. And specifically, I was not looking to date a man.
At the time, I was actively trying to avoid talking to men. It wasn’t that I had anything against men, it was just something I wanted to do. Searching through the profiles in the state where I live was depressing however. The only girl I was interested in I had already dated and I didn’t want to go down that road again, everyone else was okay, but not really my type. Oh, and also, there were only like five of women on the site.
I changed my profile to once again include men after I had gone on a few dates with lovely women who just weren’t into me, nor I into them. I feel like the whole point of online dating is to get the attention and conversation you want. If that works out and you get married and live happily ever after, rad. But most of the time you just end up hanging with them, or talking to them for a little bit and then it fizzles out and whateves. The fun comes from that initial conversation, and that’s what I was missing.
My boyfriend messaged me at the last possible moment he could. The site had sent the “last chance” message with an ice breaker and he responded to it. Going back, we didn’t have the typical flirty back and forth that was common for me. It wasn’t any weird, pushy behavior that I had experienced before. They were real conversations I would have with a friend.
When his face popped up in my messages I was immediately like, “Okay, this has to be a joke”. He was waaaaay out of my league. He is athletic, healthy, and outdoorsy. I couldn’t believe that he would even want to say hello to my pizza eating, squishy, indoorsy ass. When he wanted to meet me I felt like I was going to be walking into a joke. I’ve always been nervous when meeting new romantic prospects that all their friends will be at the meeting place and the person will laugh and exclaim how they can’t believe they I thought they would want to go out with me.
Just last night we were driving and I told him that I tried my hardest not to be weird when we first met. I tried to be the ideal me, but gave up half way through the date. I laughed and told him that was too much work. He told me that it wouldn’t have mattered when he got to know I was weird, because at any point he was already in too deep to care.
When were first started dating I had told a friend I was nervous that if I talked about ex’s or people who I had liked that were women. I didn’t want him to be the type who was then angry or jealous every time I looked at anyone. But during a trip to a nearby town we went into a store where a girl I had been interested in worked. I didn’t feel like we could walk in without him knowing this, so I casually told him the story. I was grateful when rather than freaking out he tried to guess which girl it was.
I guess the point of this post is to show that the right person will accept you. If they love you they will take all of you, not just sections. It’s important to have those people in your life. They make life easier and the world a little less cold.